Difficult doesn’t begin to describe the day. Philip is very confused. This is just part of end stage liver disease. Everything that can be done is being done. The fact is he needs a liver. There are times when the confusion is simple. He doesn’t have things straight in his mind and that is no big deal. The problem arises when he scares himself by what he has just said or becomes sad and really doesn’t understand why. There are times when being in the room with him feels right and calms him. So we stay. There are other times when he is just aware enough to scare himself. When we are in the room he talks. Sometimes we think it is best to leave him hoping that he will simply lay there and think without upsetting himself. He is hooked up to many tubes and wires. He has some sort of heating blanket to keep his body temperature stable. His hands are tied up so that he won’t pull the tubes out. He remains a sweet loving person but his humor has disappeared behind the shadow of liver disease. Please pray with us as we pray for him to get a good new liver as soon as possible.